I just can't get it together

Thats right, you read the title. I am just not feeling it anymore. I have unofficially lost my motivation. I say unofficially because there is still a little voice inside saying "It's only going to get worse if you do nothing". Tomorrow I'm going to try and start over. I just want to get my mojo back. I'm still not tracking or really eating well. Usually my first two meals are ok, dinner is hit and miss, but then I have started snacking at night. I have never been a snacker. I have a lot of issues with food, but until recently that has never been one of them. I just get hungry... maybe it's real hunger, but probably not. I really don't want to start any new bad habits, I have enough of those already.

As you ladies know, I've been talking to my boss about working from home part time. Over the last week I have been going back in forth with him. In the end I have negotiated two days a week from home. It's not what I originally wanted, but I am not turning it down. I'm going to give it a try and see how it works out. I'm hoping that it becomes the perfect compromise. Now I need start interviewing Nannies for the days I'm not home. Hopefully I can find someone great.

Keeping the goals for tomorrow simple:

Track

Eat well

Thanks:

My boy... he seriously cracks me up (I know I write about him a lot but I just can't help myself)

Working from home/more time with the boy YAY!

Mom and Stepfather are coming to visit in June

The sun shining even if it's still cold

Having an excuse to redo my office/guest bedroom

Break Down Shake Down

Hi FTers, long time no blog. I just didn't want to. But I'm trying to get it together. My eating these past two weeks have not been the best but not dreadful, but the last couple of the days I have been mindful of my eating and I've been drinking an decent amount of water and taking my vitamins for a while now. Tomorrow I will start tracking again.

The clock is ticking and my return to work is quickly approaching. I hate it. Last Friday I went and checked out a daycare that was highly recommended to me. It was fine and the woman in-charge of the infant room was very nice, but I just couldn't imagine leaving my son there 5 days a week. I cried driving home from the tour. I've been in talks with my manager to work from home a 2.5 days a week. He was very receptive when I gave him my proposal... today I got an email from him saying that he showed my proposal to his boss and now they have a "very different" option for me. My heart dropped when I read that. It's going to be some shit like "you can work 4-10s" I just know it. If they offer me some lame option, I seriously don't know if I'll go back. I do have one more trick up my sleeve... I called my friend who works at our North American HQ. He's given me some info on a freelance design gig. I may have to explore that option more soon. First, I'm going to call my boss tomorrow and hopefully get the whole scoop.

Since I've been gone a while I feel like it might me a good idea for me to re-examine my goals:

1. Track and go to WW weigh-ins.

2. Loose weight... for myself and for my family. I don't want to pass on any of my food issues.

3. Have faith

4. Get Active, even if it's just a brisk walk around the block.

goals for tomorrow:

1. Track

2. Drink more water

3. Appreciate every moment with my son

4. Stay focused

Thanks:

1. My cousin Iris

2. The love that my son receives from my friends and family

3. Spring is March 22!

4. My husband supporting me, even though the thought of me not working really freaks him out

5. That my Mom is coming in June!!!!